A View From the Floor

Friday, June 21, 2013, the first day of summer and it was a great day to play hookie from work!

So I left my suburban neighborhood in Bay Terrace, took a short ride on the Staten Island Ferry, caught the 1 train to Times Square and rolled out my yoga mat in the middle of the street.

Yes...in the middle of the street.

Not only did I have the opportunity to lay my yoga mat down in the middle of Times Square without getting a citation from the NYPD or being brought away in handcuffs (or a straight-jacket for that matter), but I had the opportunity to join with thousands of yogis and thousands more onlookers, to celebrate the first day of summer at the 11th Annual Summer Solstice in Times Square, New York. I stood in my greatness in "yoga" (or "union") at a crossroad of the modern world, inspiring others to be bigger than they are now, amidst the chaos of New York City and the world. All proceeds for the event went to Bent on Learning, a non-for-profit yoga effort that teaches yoga to New York City Public Schools.

This year 15,000 yogis registered for the event and I joined forces with them in one of the five sessions to mark the special day when the sun is at its highest point in the sky for the longest period of time. Similar traditions, some centuries old, such as gatherings in Stone Hedge, have celebrated this transformational moment in the universe. Today I participated in a modern celebration, 11 years young, with a growing community who use mindfulness, breath and intention to counter the turbulence of the big city.

Before getting into the vinyasa, I almost got caught up in the fixation of looking good and posing in my incredible yoga postures for the camera (later to post of Facebook), but I soon realized where I was and why I made the journey.

When opportunities come to you, you have two choices:  

You can take it

or 

You can ignore it

I chose to take it! 

Taking it meant breathing in every moment with my entire being.  I soon realized that rather than getting caught up in "autopilot", taking pictures or chatting away, I needed to reflect on what I was a part of.  I laid down on my back looking up at the world I walk through on a daily basis to view it from another perspective: A View From the Floor.
  

From the floor I could see and feel the vibrations of the sun go through me. Looking up meant a whole other world that we are closed to. From the floor I realized the importance of this opportunity that only a few of us had, an opportunity to change our perspective and stand in our greatness.

As the practice commenced, not only did I feel the energy of the sun but I felt the energy of the thousands of yogis practicing. Through our collective silence, I heard every noise in Times Square. Soon, onlookers were mesmerized at our commitment. I peeked up to catch a glimpse of those around me and I could see glimmers of curiosity and introspection coming out from onlookers, questioning if this could be something they have been searching for in their journey. 

From that moment, I realized what Summer Solstice was really about.

It is a time to reflect on things in our lives that have peaked and need to transform. The sun, in it's greatness, merely supports the way :)

Life is short, so get messy! 

Escape Your Prison Through Breathe

Yoga Room at an Airport (but not at LAX)

While traveling home from a weekend of training, I arrived at the airport with all of my electronic devices on the verge of zero battery life. With a pending 4 hour flight and desperate to charge up, every gate in my terminal was packed to capacity and because of that, every outlet at the Los Angeles Airport (LAX) was occupied. Needless to say, LAX needs to rethink their outlet situation (and perhaps their Yoga Room situation since they still lack a formal space for practice.)

In an attempt to obtain at least one outlet, I hovered near an outlet stand where a swarm of 8th graders from California were waiting for their flight to Washington D.C. to celebrate their graduation. I chatted with chaperones and students and before I knew it...BAM! ...their flight was boarding and two free outlets were made available to me.

Not the actual lady but a reenactment.

All charged up and ready to board my flight, I walked to my gate and noticed that my group, Group 4, had already boarded. Group 5 was already lined up and slowly moving onto the aircraft.  Since there were roped off entrances for each group, including Group 4, I made it my business to go through my designated line and merge into Group 5 who was boarding the flight... And that's when trouble erupted.

A woman in Group 5 noticed that I had arrived late and now had a big problem with my merging into her lane. She proceeded to exclaim out loud to everyone on the line, "Who does this woman think she is?" and "She's getting on the line now, when they called Group 4 ten minutes ago." As my Brooklyn blood started to boil, I reflected on my weekend training with James Fox (founder of the Prison Yoga Project) who exposed me to breath and its anchoring ability in stressful environments such as prison.

My old behaviors creeped in and I turned around to see who was bad mouthing me. Now mind you, a disciplined yogi would not even have turned around but I am still developing my impulse control and I am a work in progress.

We made eye contact and she remained silent.  I looked at her and thought to myself:

"Definetly passive-aggressive."
"This woman is making assumptions about why I am late."
"I was charging my battery, lady."
"I paid for my ticket too."
"We are all going on the same plane."
"You would have to wait for me anyway."
"I can't believe you are judging me with that yoga mat on your back."

And YES - she was carrying a yoga mat!

A million things were sounding off in my head. I could have gone Brooklyn on her and thought to myself, had this been 10 years ago, I would have. Heck, if this was 6 months ago, I would at least given her a tongue lashing for pretending to live a yogic life...but I didn't.

Flashback to training at the Prison Yoga Project (PYP) and how those prisoners are met with confrontation consistently throughout their day. Think about it... a small beef in the prison could turn into a full out brawl that can lead to far worse repercussions. With a program such as the PYP, individuals who have access to a yoga practice while in prison are taught to use Pranayama (or breath) as a means to anchor themselves in challenging situations.

Pranayama translated means the "extension of the breath" or the "extension of the life force".  I thought  to myself, if those who are incarcerated could use breath to ground themselves in one of the most unpredictable environments in the world, prison, why couldn't I do the same in an average situation like this. Rather than allow my body to be on autopilot, I slowly began to breathe in and out through my nose, ujjayi breath, gaining control of my mind.

"Pranayama is considered a cleansing process by increasing the heat in the body.  By directing areas of the system into the increased heat or fire (agni), obstructions are burned and removed." 
- Mark Whitwell,  Yoga of Heart 

ZAP!! Take that! Soon my focus shifted and the tension that was boiling through me ready to expel outward in a wrath of recycled negative energy, dissipated. Clarity took over my body and I shuffled off in silence into my seat in Group 4.

A Brief Intro to Pranayama

"The mind is the king of the senses and the breath is the king of the mind." - B.K.S. Iyengar

I made my way to my seat and continued my breathing. Now sitting, I realized that this notion of breath could really take me places. Calming, peaceful places, that are more powerful than any Brooklyn reaction I have ever exhibited.  If I can control my mind and my reaction to the drama unfolding around me by using my breath, I could really have something here. I opened my books and started to explore aspects of Pranayama subsequently quelling any need for digital devices on my airplane ride back to the East Coast.

Pranayama, the 4th of 8 Limbs of Yoga, comes in many different forms and uses, some of which are briefly described below (reference "The Seven Spiritual Laws of Yoga" by Deepak Chopra, M.D.)

Note: Always consult a qualified medical professional before beginning any exercise program.   

• Ujjayi (Ocean Breath/Success Breath/"Darth Vader" Breath): This diaphragmatic breath is the foundation of asanas, allowing focus without mental friction. With your tongue/mouth soft,  inhalation and exhalation is slightly longer than a normal breath and of equal duration through the nostrils and through the back of a relaxed throat. This breath is also helpful in regulating the mind/body in "aerobic exercise". 

• Nadi Sodhana Pranayam aka Anuloma (Channel Clearing Breath/Alternate Nostril Breath): This breath reduces mental turbulence leaving a calming affect in the mind/body and is used to "invoke a state of calm inner awareness". Smoothly inhaling and exhaling, close off the right nostril and inhale through the left nostril, then closing off the left nostril to exhale the air through the right nostril. Alternating sides, inhale through the right nostril, then close it off and exhale through the left nostril. All inhalations and exhalations should be filling and expunging the lungs of air.  Repeat this procedure for a few minutes. 

The below pranyamas are considered more advanced and should be practiced with care and understanding:

• Bhastrika Pranayam (Bellows Breath): This breath is used to revitalize/reenergize. In a seated position, this breath is supported by deep inhalations and forceful exhalations, in and out of your nostrils not to exceed 15 seconds, a breath per second. After completing the first round, pause for 15 to 30 seconds, noticing the sensations your body, before starting the next round lasting 20 seconds (a breath per second) in duration. After a pause of 30 seconds, perform a final round of 30 breaths. 

• Kapal Bhati Pranayam (Shining Forehead Breath): With similar affects of Bhastrika, this breath is supported by a slow and unforced inhalation and a sharp and forceful exhalation, contracting the stomach muscles to force the air out. Taking a seated position, forcefully expel the air from your lungs allowing the air to "passively" refill your lungs. Complete these breaths 10 times for 3-4 cycles.  

Empower Others to Breath: The Prison Yoga Project

So my weekend of training doesn't end using my yoga practice to counter some lady on an airplane. It becomes a platform for me to teach yoga to people who may not necessarily have access to it. Here's how...            


The Prison Yoga Project (PYP) training is a creation by its passionate founder, James Fox, to empower yoga instructors with the tools to teach "the practice of Hatha Yoga and Mindfulness Meditation" to "at-risk populations in prisons, residential rehabilitation facilities and community programs". Fox founded this program at the San Quentin State Prison, where he has been teaching yoga to "determinate and life-sentenced prisoners since 2002".  This program attempts to counter two main themes prisoners are facing: violence and addiction.

Fox has crafted a teaching training program that empowers yoga instructors with the tools needed to develop their own at-risk program or sync up with an already existing one.  Fox synthesizes critical academic research on complex trauma with timeless yogic studies to formalize a yoga practice that carefully assists in developing "self regulation" or "impulse control" for these individuals. Subsequently, these individuals not only learn how to deal with their own emotional issues but reduce the overall negative conditions within their environments.  Finally, through what Fox describes as "emotional intelligence work", individuals come to the realization of personal accountability for their actions through the concept of "Restorative Justice".

Throughout the training, yoga instructor trainees participant in group discussions about research concepts, practice typical asanas specifically designed for these at-risk populations, learn about the daily realities of prison life, understand how to interact with prisoners and prison staff, hear success stories from primary sources and are empowered with resources to commence a program in their own community.

Come to your HIGHER BEING:

• Learn More: Check out this AMAZING PYP video, "How Yoga Can Help in California's Overcrowded Prison" or visit the Prison Yoga Project website HERE.
  
  
• Buy a Book: Fox's book, Yoga: A Path for Healing and Recovery, was developed in direct response to prisoner requests to continue their yoga practice on the inside. This is proof that prisoners are searching for a way to get to their "Higher Being". For just 10$, purchase a copy of Yoga: A Path for Healing and Recovery for a prisoner in need by clicking  HERE.  

• Get Trained: Attend an upcoming PYP Training...Registration is ongoing.

San Francisco Bay Area Training/Workshop

June 29-30, 2013

California Institute of Integral Studies

Register HERE or email jennifer@insighprisonproject.org

Sacramento Training/Workshop

August 3-4, 2013

Asha Yoga Sacramento

Just confirmed - 

Denver/Boulder, October 4-6, 2013

New York City, November 16-17, 2013

See the Prison Yoga Project website for registration details.

• Join a Program and TEACH - *WANTED* Male Yoga Teachers (or Women Yoga Teachers): There is a huge disparity between the amount of males in prison (93.4% of the prison population in the United States is male - reference Bureau of Prisons) and the amount of male yoga teachers in the United States (72.2% of yoga practitioners in the United States are females - reference Statistic Brain).  This has a significant impact on the amount of male yoga instructors who attend the PYP training and ultimately who facilitate training for these predominately male at-risk populations. There are many programs currently working to help at-risk populations.  Find out whats available by clicking HERE or be in creation and develop your own program within your community.  

Life is short, so get messy! 

FEAR

In the United States, death is an occurrence that is rarely discussed yet it happens everyday.  

Take these statistics into consideration: 

The world death rate is approximately 172,800 deaths per day. That is 2 deaths per second, 120 deaths per minute, and 7200 deaths per hour. In the United States there are approximately 6000 deaths every day, 1500 of which are the result of cancer.

So why is death a subject most Americans don't like to talk about?  

After my mother's diagnosis of Colon Cancer, I have witnessed FEAR as the essential cause of a variety of emotional responses to death. Whilst we pray for a miracle, the odds to beat Stage IV cancer are slim.  My response to this grave possibility is to spend as much time with her, reflecting on life.  I am proud to say that these past few weeks have been eye-opening, as everyday that I am with my mother, I learn something new about her and about myself.  

As it relates to FEAR in these life and death situations, emotional responses expose dormant traumas of our past for which our FEAR is based upon. Our personal stories (the stories we tell ourselves) drive our FEAR and set the tone for our emotional responses to that FEAR. Then, our actions coincide with those emotional responses.  Unfortunately, these actions land on other people in our relationships like giant boulders (crash!) impacting everyone around you. Now you have chaos. 

So how do you hold the emotions back before the dam breaks? Simply put, my answer is to identify your FEAR, understand your emotional response to it, acknowledge the naked reality of it and then, try another way.  

Name that FEAR

Fill in your FEAR here _____________________________

Emotional Responses to FEAR

Choose 1 of 3 Emotional Responses to FEAR that usually come up for you.
(How do you respond when you are in a stressful situation?)
____________________________________

FIGHT - You get flipping tables mad!
Associated Actions: punch, yell, scream, argue, defend, and strike

FLIGHT - "I'm outta here!"

Associated Actions: run, flee, escape, avoid, deflect, and avert

FREEZE - "I'm a myatonic goat...baahhh!"

Associated Actions:  numb, harden, and stiffen

Getting to the Truth

While reading Baron Baptiste's new book "Being of Power: The 9 Practices to Ignite an Empowered Life", chapter 7 (Embracing Naked Reality) discusses how we should not get too consumed by the stories we make up about FEAR, rather we should practice "seeing the difference between what actually is and the garbage we add to it". By getting clear on the facts of a situation and not jumping ahead to what could happen, we deviate from the stories we routinely create. 

For example:

FACT: My mom was diagnosed with Stage 4 Colon Cancer.  Nothing more, nothing less.  

MY STORY: My dad died suddenly when I was 13. This event was traumatic, life changing and extremely painful, therefore, my mothers death will be traumatic, life changing and extremely painful. 

NAKED REALITY: My mom's illness is a new experience. While she is likely to experience some of the affects of chemotherapy, it will impact her in a unique way. While she is likely to die from this illness, the time I have with her left here on the earth is special to me and I choose to spend it getting to know her in a way that works for both of us. 

Old Habits Don't Die Hard

What I have come to realize is that while one may have made some significant progress in their response to FEAR, old habits live dormant within us and trauma awakens the beast. Take for example addressing family members in regards to my mothers care. Over the past few weeks I saw myself reverting back to my old habit of FLIGHT (avoidance) when addressing actions I was feeling.  This has been an issue for me for years. I often don’t address emotions right away because I don’t want to FIGHT so I inevitably avoid to the point where my point of view gets lost in the moment. NAKED REALITY - I have made a commitment to my mother and myself to be authentic by being who I am and providing information for the best care for my mother, even if others take it personal. It is who I am and I am coming from a place of LOVE. For years, I buried myself in so many emotions by way of FLIGHT (avoidance) that I am now committed to putting in the work and excavate my way back to my authentic self.

 Examples of my past FLIGHT (avoidance): 

1. When I was an adolescent, I ran away (a few times) avoiding my home life. (Granted running away was sometimes down the block, but you get the point.)
2. When I was 13, my dad died and I went shopping at the mall to avoid having to deal with being present at my fathers wake. (Who does that?)
3. When I was 18 and pregnant, my grandmother gave me an ultimatum.  So I left. (No regrets of who I have become but it meant years without my family.)

These old habits just don't go away. You have to work at them the moment they resurface. This is evident for me when operating in this new trauma.  Being of power is about facing FEAR with PATIENCE and making a shift to LOVE.

Love, Love, Love

"Power is of two kinds. One is obtained by the FEAR (of punishment) and the other by acts of LOVE.  Power based on LOVE is a thousand times more effective and permanent than the one derived from FEAR (of punishment)." - Mahatma Gandhi

Try this Recipe to Replace FEAR with LOVE

1. IDENTIFY your FEAR.
2. NOTICE your response to FEAR and the mechanism you use (i.e. fight, flight or freeze).
3. GET the facts straight surrounding your FEARful situation.
4. TELL the story that is the root of your FEAR response. 
5. REPLACE your story with the intention of LOVE - cause LOVE is all you need!

Life is short, so get messy! 

Plant the Seed of Knowledge

A good friend told me recently that when you share your knowledge with someone, even if they are resistant, you have planted a seed that one day, even if they don't see your perspective, they can recall that information and build upon it.

Here is my seed to you.

When someone you love is dying from a terminal illness, all of your emotions - good or bad - become excessively charged. Reactions to the diagnosis, behaviors and perspectives become exacerbated by the reality that your loved one will leave this earth soon.  While everyone – hospital staff, family members and friends - can provide their perspective with the best of intentions, it is ultimately up to the person who is dying to digest those facts to make one of the most important decisions in their life:

How do I want to leave this world?

There are three schools of thought in this matter, all of which are unpredictable, painful and not an easy decision to make.     

1. Go home, fulfill your dying wishes to the best of your ability, uncertain of your longevity, be surrounded by your loved ones and greet death as you are.
2. Fight the cancer with chemotherapy, to extend your life or try to save it, praying for a miracle that you will be cured, be surrounded by your loved ones and either survive or greet death as you are with the chemotherapy.
3. Seek out alternatives to fight cancer, try everything and anything possible, to push back the cancer or possibly obliterate it, to either survive or possibly greet death as you are with the alternative therapies.

The thing about life is that ever turn is a slippery slope.  We have free choice, for the most part, some of us more than others depending on our socio-economics, our access to information, etc. For me, I know which one I would choose but to each his/her own.  

Mom and Dad's Wedding Day

With life and death, faith often plays an intricate roll in this decision, even if it's stored deep beneath the surface of the situation. If we have a deep faith, perhaps a belief in resurrection, re-incarceration, whatever… we put our faith in the fact that death will land you into something new: back home with your creator, in some new form or as a scientific piece of energy someplace in the world. There will be this ending that will be painful for those who are left behind but there will be this glorious beginning of something new and beautiful.

The scientific facts are that my mom was diagnosed with Stage 4 Colon Cancer, which is inoperable. They believed it started with one tumor in the descending colon, which metastasized to the liver where she has multiple growths and is now showing up as a lesion on her hip. 

My siblings and I 

In retrospect, my mom is the type of person who has done opposite of what she has told us to do.  My sister recalls the “good ole days” when my mother used to have my sister sit at the table until she finished all of her veggies, despite the fact that my mother didn’t eat very many veggies herself.  While I had a love for all my veggies, my sister crafted a way to dispose of her greens under the table to our family dog. 

I can sit here and cast blame.  Why didn’t my mother have a healthier lifestyle? Could her other medications have caused these tumors? Why didn’t my mother get a colonoscopy?  How could her doctor not detect this early on? I can cast all the blame and give a million reasons why my mother is going to die but the reality is that none of it will change that fact.

Right now, I want to dedicate my spare time to focusing on my mom, assist in the decision that was made to do the chemotherapy and show up for our relationship in these final days. For you, all I can do is share my knowledge of how to prevent this awful disease so that hopefully someone you love will bypass the ugliness of cancer. 

Basic Facts to Counter Colon Cancer:

• The most important thing to maintain the health of your colon is the diet.
• The purpose of the colon is to process the waste and hold it until we can get to the bathroom and dispose of it.
• The colon holds our waste an average of 36 hours, leaving the cells on the colon walls vulnerable to cancer by way of direct contact to the carcinogens passing through.
• Studies suggest red meat and animal fats are prime causes of the genetic mutation of cells within the colon, along with processed foods that contain numerous unnecessary byproducts. 
• Eating fresh fruits and fresh vegetables protect us against colon cancer by diluting carcinogens and creating a bulkier waste, pushing the food out of the body quickly. 
• Living an inactive lifestyle leaves you prone to colon cancer.  Exercise assists in the processing of our food and subsequent waste through the digestive track. 

Yoga and The Colon:

Revolving Crescent Lunge aka Parivrtta Anjaneyasana

While exercise and keeping your weight down in general are good preventative measures to avoid cancer, yoga provides specific benefits to the health of your organs, specifically the colon. One of the benefits of yoga as noted in Yoga Journal include how poses with twists assist in cleansing your internal organs by enhancing digestion in what B.K.S. Iyengar describes as a “squeeze and soak” action. With the compression of the organs during these twisting yoga poses, the body naturally rinses out toxic blood, allowing fresh blood with healing elements in. This subsequently has a natural cleansing affect on the colon and other organs in the region.

Colon Cancer Screening: (as noted in the American Cancer Society Colorectal Facts and Figures 2011-2013 ) 

• 96% of colorectal cancers are from “adenocarcinomas" which a great majority of these cancers arise from what is know as “polyps”. 
• Early detection of “polyps” can be made through a “Flexible Sigmoidoscop” or a “Colonscopy”, both which can detect “polyps” and in the later, allow for the removal of the growths during the screening process. 
• Everyone should start screening by their 50^th Birthday, unless you have a family history whereby you should start screenings before 50 using the “Colonscopy” method to screen. 

Be the Teacher: 

• Plant the seed of knowledge so that all may evoke that wisdom in moments of need. 
• Share a 5 minute video with your loved ones entitled "Your Colon and You". 
• Pass along these prevention facts about colon cancer. 
• And finally, never take for granted the opportunity to be present with those you love.

Life is short, so get messy!

Spring! Into a New Perspective

Spring is in the air!

Spring 2013 sunrise from Staten Island, NY

An analogy of new beginnings and rebirth, Spring is almost always associated with the world around us coming back to life. From my perspective, the beginning of Spring leaves a certain sheen on the morning sun as it comes up over the horizon. I always notice the ducks migrating back to the neighborhood, my peach tree beginning to bud, and the temperature inside 5 Boro Power Yoga starting to get significantly hotter as the outside temperature starts to increase (*wiping the sweat with my towel).

Vinnie Marino

Like any season change, it is an opportunity to change your perspective. Often we have to change our position to see the change, but with every new season, the world changes around us instantly. All you have to do is be present to it!

In my personal growth, evolving in my yoga practice includes getting other perspectives: examining other yoga styles, experiencing new teachers, and being with broader yoga communities.  What better way to do that than by attending the Yoga Journal Conference (YJC) this past weekend in New York City.

Yoga Journal began in 1975 when a group of yogi's set out to create a magazine to "unite" a growing community with "classical yoga" information coupled with "modern science".  Since 2007, the YJC hosts days long events at various venues throughout the country, where yogis come together to experience training from master teachers and be exposed to innovations in all things yoga. Interestingly enough, all of the New York YJC's have been held in Spring.

Vinnie Marino's Nivasana graphic

My first class, entitled "Wake Up and Flow" with Vinnie Marino from Yoga Works, Santa Monica, was a great way to start my day.  His comedic improvisational fillers included his experiencing "coke"with his friends the night before at dinner ("coca-cola - not the drug coke" he noted - *chuckle) and "Nivasana" (boat pose), where he drew on the education board, making light of our potential slouchiness. Vinnie is known for his "rock n' roll" flow and taught many a Hollywood star. Vinnie workshopped "Warrior", simplifying the pose by grounding the back foot down before lifting the front foot into the abdomen (and rounding the spine), then gently placing it between the hands. This allows for the integrity of the pose, keeping the energy drawn into the midline. Vinnie was charming and witty, commenting on my thick New York accent as any good Californian would, yet encouraging me to take his class when I was in Santa Monica.

Sri Dharma Mittra

My second class, Master Sadhana, with renowned founder of the Dharma Yoga Center New York, Sri Dharma Mittra, was challenging and introspective.  Much of his lecture dealt with the Yamas and the Niyamas, and how to take the practice of yoga into our daily lives. The practice itself was challenging and his style of yoga was slightly different than Power Vinyasa.  What I noticed during this practice was my desire to go back to my comfort zone and practice in a way comfortable to me, rather than trying something new. After several corrections, I eventually submitted to the 74-year old's style.  Interestingly enough, I came out of the lesson really understanding his message of openness and compassion for the everything else around us.

AcroYoga at The Marketplace

After lunch, I attended a workshop by Auracacia, where Charlynn Avery discussed using essential oils and aromatherapy in our everyday life. Aromatherapy has been something of interest to me and somehow this tutorial was just enough to get me started. Soon after the presentation, I headed over to The Marketplace where I purchased some oils and obtained recipes for applications. The Marketplace is a space within the venue where the community gathers throughout the day to experience cutting edge yoga goods and services. While experiencing all that was available, I was exposed to the acrobatic works of AcroYoga, a blend of yoga and acrobatics that focuses on the principles of trust, listening and connection. This opened me up to something new that I may try in the future.    

Tias Little demonstrates location of kidneys
and I made the cut!

My last class of the day was "Healing the Kidneys for Vitality and Longevity", with the owner of Prajna Yoga in New Mexico, Tias Little.  This class was a balance of both educational lecture and yoga poses specifically to target the health of the kidneys. The most valuable lessons learned from this lecture was how significant the health of our kidneys are in relationship to the mind/body experience.

The adrenal gland, which sits on top of our kidneys, releases hormones in response to stress i.e. our "fight" or "flight" reaction in crisis. An unhealthy adrenal gland is often associated with fatigue and overtime, the release of too much of a particular hormone can lead to illness. Through meditation and asana, we learn to regulate our response by imposing non-reaction, which long term, with help condition our kidneys/adrenal gland functionality. While the lecture allowed for an anatomical understanding of the function, positioning and connection the kidneys have in relationship to the rest of the body, knowing how these organs interact provides perspective on how each yoga pose impacts the anatomical structures. For the last half of the class, Tias focused on poses that engaged the health of the kidneys, particularly stretching the inner thighs, where the main descending artery runs from the kidneys to the feet, and the gentle compression/expansion of the lower back, which houses the organs.

Pose that engages kidney vitality:
Side Facing Wide Leg Forward Bend

As it turns out, my exposure to all of these perspectives provided tools that I can bring into my everyday life, on or off the mat. This experience was an example of how much we stand to gain if we are open to new perspectives. Just as we witness how the buds on a peach tree flourish from a little pod, to a beautiful flower, and onward to a delicious, sun rippened peach, allow for your perspective to shift in understanding how the world is evolving all around us and be open to it.

Life is short, so get messy!

The Truth About Love

My husband and I

This weekend I learned that forgiveness is one of the key ingredients of a successful relationship.  

Forgiveness provides relief from the emotional baggage of the event(s) that inevitably keeps relationships stagnant and filled with resentment. Since returning from my training with Baron Baptiste, I have been in inquiry regarding the notion of forgiveness and how it allows for the possibility of a renewed vitality. What I have come to realize is that forgiveness must go hand and hand with new habit patterns. Even Baron Baptiste struggled with habitual patterns that blocked his vitality.  In an article with Origin, Baptiste tells of his struggle in his early 20s: with being a new yoga teacher, a new dad, and a new husband. He noted that no matter how much he practiced yoga – through asanas, meditations, prayer, and healthy eating - something was still missing.  It was through his forgiveness and through the forgiveness of others that he was able to clear the space and form new habit patterns.  

My gift to my husband

For me, after years of being resentful and holding onto mistakes my husband made, I finally came to a place where I truly forgave him, despite the fact that he has always forgiven me and accepted me for who I am. While I have forgiven him, the problem was, I continued to respond to him with habitual patterns that do not reflect forgiveness, rather exemplifies a hurtful past.  If I was to really commit to forgiveness, I must be impactful, create a celebration to mark a new beginning and create new behaviors that reflect true forgiveness. 

So, this weekend I created a memorable night of celebration to begin this rebirth.

Crawfish Boil from Bayou, Staten Island, NY

Months ago, I had placed a new wedding band on lay-away at Nick's Fine Jewelry on Avenue U in Brooklyn for my husband.  I finally picked it up.  I had it engraved with our names and the day we officially started dating, as a symbol of our renewed commitment. Besides, this April marks 23 years we have been together, so presenting it to my husband on a special night for him would make it more special.  Since my husband was craving crawfish for months, I took him to an excellent canjun restaurant in Staten Island, NY called Bayou, where the atmosphere, food, drinks and service was wonderful.  Luckily, crawfish is in season and he ordered a “crawfish boil” that was outrageous. After ordering our drinks, I presented the ring to my surprised husband. After our great dinner, we went to see P!nk, his favorite female artist, who performed live at the Izod Center in New Jersey.  We had an amazing time at the show! I was able to express to him that my commitment to keep moving forward in this relationship is similar to P!nk's mantra of forgiveness on her new album.

P!nk & Corey Hart at MTV VMAs 2012   

Ironically, P!nk and her husband, Corey Hart, have a similar story to ours. Over the past few years, the couple has gone back and forth trying to just accept each other, struggling with it for so long that at one point there were reports that they had officially split up. Whether they had truly split is irrelevant. Inevitably, they found a way to come to terms with some of the unfortunate events in their relationship, to forgive and move on. The result was their beautiful daughter, Willow Sage Hart, and P!nk's successful new album, "The Truth About Love". 

One song in particular expresses a poignant message that resonates with the concept of forgiveness and change of habitual patterns. "Just Give Me aReason" is a conversation between two people: one who is open to forgiveness and sees the relationship as "bent" and the other who is still listening to the voices in their head telling them that the relationship is "broken".  This song speaks to forgiveness, learning to love again, and positive messaging in the relationship, rather than living in the past.  

P!nk soaring over crowd at the Izod     

For years, I listened to the voices in my head telling me that my marriage was so far gone and that people can't change. I self-sabotaged my relationship and believed my husband couldn't change. I started to become this person I couldn't recognize, all the while, oblivious to the fact that he was coming into his greatness. While I was in a place of doubt in our relationship, my husband was always looking from a place of hope. I now know that without his perseverance and belief in us, we would not be here.

The truth about love is that it is not perfect. It takes work and commitment by both people.  If both people acknowledge the past, forgive and commit to changing behaviors, all the bends in the relationship can be straightened out over time. 

Life is short, so get messy!